Rage - a poetry

It erupts in my heart 
When I see what is mine, what could be, 

with the haunting past that takes you away from me.

The fire that spreads from bone to muscle but does not show,
inside me it steadily grows.

The expanding warmth grips me, breaks me,
making my sorrows extinguish, tears evaporate,
only leaving the seething pain that swallows me.

Rage, a rage called love
that you cannot help, that cannot be,
that the naked eye cannot see,
This rage might kill me but
I will take it.

Dying in its fire will trump living without love at all

100 Days, 250 Movies - Will I be able to do it?

I had the most absurd of thoughts right now. How would it be to finish watching IMDB's 250 Highest Rated Movies in 100 Days? And if some time still remains, I'd like to make a memento for each of them - a review, a doodle, a story, something to remember it!

Let's take a few things in perspective here - I have a full time job, I go to the gym, I travel to and fro from work for close to 3 hours. Squeezing in 2 movies a day is going to be difficult. I'll watch the left over movies during the weekend to catch up.

Yes, I have seen a bunch of the movies in the list already but I will watch them again.

Why such absurdity?

I am a huge cinema fanatic. I love watching movies to the extent that I've watched my favourite movies for months on end. Speed, The Mummy, Shrek 4, Wreck It Ralph, et all were watched every day after I came back from school/ college/ work for over a month.

My only concern is fitting in World Cinema (French, South Korean movies) and still keeping up with my reading list. (I've to finish at least 5 Novels by Stephen King, The LOTR series, A Song of Ice & Fire, Shakespeare)

Haha. 24 hours in a day. 100 Days.. 250 Movies. Keeping up with life.

You know what?

Want to succeed? Get off 9GAG

Don't get me wrong, I'm a huge 9GAG fan. Their memes are the funniest, it's user generated content at it's best. But, it can easily negatively influence you. I've been meaning to write this since January, when the time to make resolutions was around and people were trying to be better versions of themselves in 2014, when I these started appearing on my News Feed...

I took them as jokes but then the frequency of these increased and it started to worry me. To those who take it as a gag, brilliant. But what if someone starts taking this seriously? 

Being lazy, giving up, going to the gym on 1st and skipping on 2nd Jan is glorified. It came to point even I began to think, 'Wow, I'm going to give up anyway, why even bother trying?'

And this is just one example. There's others where 9GAG sort of preaches that it's good to be at home all the time, it's good to not have a social life and just gorge on food, it's okay to ignore your health, everyone is doing it anyway. So many such examples, think about it - you've liked these because they were relatable and you said, 'haha! I thought I was the only one!' There's a comfort in knowing that you're not alone, especially when it's about being awkward/ different than 'normal' people.

I'm not saying that 9GAG should become a motivational site and post only 'you can do it!' inspired content but then I'm only trying to bring to your attention, that be careful because subconsciously you might be getting affected. 

All I'm trying to say here is -

1. Look at it, laugh and move on. Don't think over it or even let it register in your head

2. Do not stop making resolutions, especially health ones. Like motivating FB pages and Instagram accounts so that you get a regular dose of how good fitness looks and feels.

3. If 9GAG has convinced you that it's okay to be socially awkward, don't settle with that. Try getting out of your shell, we weren't born with a set of rigid rules. We make our own lives and we can be however we want - personality and otherwise. If you're okay with not wanting to mingle with people, that's cool. But if you want more out of life, don't settle.

Most of this was beginning to happen to me. I was being sucked into that hole of having accepted my awkward and not working on it. Then I made a resolution to change this year and 4 months in, I feel like a much more successful person in all areas of my life. I've started working out, office is better, personal relationships are better because I've started expressing myself to loved ones and listening to them. 

We're young, we have access to ample information on the internet. We can practically mould ourselves into what we want. There's a youtube video for everything - so that we could be the best version of ourself. So let's not let lethargy take over and do something about it.

But first...

Get off 9GAG.

Review - Shuddh (NON)Desi Romance

I can't believe it. I'm sure swargwasi papa Yash wouldn't have approved this film. He is the original Father of Desi Romance and such movie being made under his banner stupefies me.

Wo hawa ka uski zulfun ke saath khel jana,

wo muskurate honton se uska mujhe choo jana

Wo dikhash adayein, wo ek nazar,

pyaar hai mujhe usse, tumhe bhi hai.. toh palat
[ voice over by SRK ]

[ DDLJ Score ]
[ Crappy Shayri courtesy - myself ]

Waiting for your love for 22 years in Veer Zaara, fighting Jesus Ji for 10 years to finally have to meet his love, romancing in the Switzerland, Kashmir and... marriage. That is Shuddh Desi Romance.

The movie in question catches the nerve - that Big Fat Indian Weddings are nothing but fake. And then it goes overboard. Raghu Ram seems to have drawn inspiration from Bhaag Milkha Bhaag. Gayatri maintains herself has the hot-mod-break up-et-al chick with a sensitive heart. Then there's Tara, I really can't place her character actually. The actress has nice hair :) Everyone seems to have nice hair in the film. hmm..

The characters are very vague. None knows what's going on. There is no pattern to the story. It promises a lot in the beginning and then just drifts into something where even I was scratching my head as to what was going on. I haven't felt this uneasy watching a movie ever.

MY FEELS:

MY RATING:

I give the movie 2/5. 

1.0 star for music, 

0.5 for Sushant Singh Rajput's expressions and 

0.5 for Rishi Kapoor who does a brilliant job as ever

Until next week,

Karima

Why are you looking out the window?

I hate this world.
I do like nature and forest and animals and tranquility - that is Earth.
I like people, my family, the best friends, the good friends - they are Humans.
But I don't like our parallel existence. Where the Earth and Humans combine, they make the World.

The more you try to narrow it, the more complex it becomes. My World, Her World, Their World, Geography. And somewhere they combine. They didn't teach us the Venn diagram for nothing. The World is indeed a large Venn Diagram. Each person moulded differently, they become different for different people - in accordance with the changing World.

Nobody gets it. They think it's all the same. Like the hamster running in a cage. The day progresses, the nights commence, the clock moves, the paycheck arrives at the same time each month. But it's not. You know it. You change as you swift between these Worlds. Why are we looking for answers in the Universe? Why are we searching for other dimensions? So many exist in your very life. Think.

Then why do I hate the World? It makes me nauseous. There is so much falseness, I see right through it. Like Bathsheba Sherman feeds off of Carolyn Perron, everyone wants to feed off of you. Demented, hollow, making you believe that's something that you are doing is wrong while you eat your iron supplements to treat the wounds.

Please, I beg you. Open your mind. Be better than being trapped in your money infested dreams. Open your World to better people and open yourself to your own World instead of being the highlight of others'. Free yourself from the trance of 'destiny' and make life happen.

I will hate the World till you come and tell me, "No, Karima. It's beautiful"

Until Next Time,
Karima

I have no idea what I'm writing. It's 1 AM and I'm half asleep. It is a high possibility I'm sleep writing. I've been itching to write anything since the past few weeks. Feels good.

PS: Please watch The Conjuring to understand Bathsheba Sherman references